i will rise

as chris tomlin's song rings true in many hearts, it's one that fights to escape from mine. rediscovering his amazing grace isn't as dignified as i remembered it... it's messy but at least it's real. he is my crutch, my one and only real thing i can lean on. especially now and a rising hope - for forever.

chris tomlin's "i will rise"
there's a peace i've come to know
though my heart and flesh may fail
there's an anchor for my soul
i can say, it is well

jesus has overcome
and the grave is overwhelmed
the victory is won
he is risen from the dead

and i will rise
when he calls my name
no more sorrow, no more pain
i will rise, on eagle's wings
before my god
fall on my knees,
and rise...
i will rise

there's a day that's drawing near
when this darkness breaks to light
and the shadows disappear
and my faith shall be my eyes

and i hear the voice of many angels sing
worthy is the lamb!
and i hear the cry of every longing heart
worthy is the lamb!

quest for intimacy

tippy toes, ready to launch
i asked the question that invited the challenge
to go on a quest for intimacy - with God and the family around me

there's no way but forward
yet reasoning grabs my ankles, or is it fear disguised?

i stay and consider
really count the cost

tippy toes, here i go!

victory realised

scattered thoughts screaming
running emotions rattling
against the bars of a prison cell

they're trapped inside
unable to break free
cos they're not worthy
created from the darkest of pits

they seek only to satisfy themselves
they feed till their own bellies burst
and destroy everything, everyone around
to only return to the darkest of pits

starve i say! starve and die!
it is no longer i that live
it is Christ Himself who thrives
and stands free

on the other side of this cell
with me
staring straight into the enemy's eyes
we win.

another day is here

another day - by Sons of Day

another day is starting
the peace is broken now
i get up on my feet again
forgetting yesterday

the sun is climbing higher
into the open sky
the people moving quickly
to where they need to be

another day is starting
i don’t know where to go from here
i’m searching for You now
i hope to find You here

another day is starting
i’m trying hard to clear my head
i’m thinking of You now
and all the things You’ve said

and as i’m walking through the streets
i see a lonely face to greet
a smile will always cheer me up
from all the people that I meet

another day I’m looking
i’m searching for direction
i’m lost without You here
i don’t know where I am

another day is starting
i don’t know where to go from here
i’m searching for You now
i hope to find You here

another day is starting
i’m trying hard to clear my head
i’m thinking of You now
and all the things You’ve said

i am searching everywhere
i’ve been searching everyday
just to find that You are here
and You’re with me now